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Talking it out does work sometimes. I have been anxious and that is never good. Oh okay. So here goes. 

1. I was worried about spending money to bring the boys to before school care at their school, but it's not like that is the biggest of my worries. So today I did fill out and turn in their registration so they are set. If they have to be there so early, which always breaks my heart. My poor melodramatic heart. I am so over you, heart, you sentimental thing. This is the way it is always, the problem with paying someone else to care for my children. But I did it. I don't have any worries right, because I don't have any. Right.
2. I went to my first full day of class which was not teaching, just some kind of at-times-bizarre orientation thingy where they went over our handbook, showed us an incredible slide show on APA style (goodness! It's a good thing the guy was so cute and enthusiastic. People were rolling their eyes and sliding underneath their desks. Even I was about to rebel, the presentation was so long. Hooray for commas! He said stuff like that and I thought I was the only one that dorky. Serious. I did.)
3. Should I renew my Martha Stewart subscription? I remember a time when Martha Stewart was incredible. I was so enthralled to get that magazine every month and see the amazing things she could do that I just didn't do, but could have, but wouldn't, because at the time I wasn't independently wealthy and living in the Hamptons. Yeah.
4. So I did dishes last night. 
5. I need to take out the trash. Big time. Maybe tomorrow is Wednesday and someboy can do it. No. Tomorrow is Tuesday. Can I survive one more day for the sake of lazyness?
6. There are a zillion boxes. On my couch. Can you say lazy? Or, ambiguous recycling? One day I put the recycling out and nothing happened. So now I'm not sure. Do I put it out, do I make some other decision? I can't decide.
7. My life is just so ... so what? What word comes to mind? Nothing. Can I be quiet for a second and see what word shows up? No. 
8. Probably I should pay the bills. That is the goal here anyway. The reason I'm blogging right now. 
9. I can blog and get things done, the blog is the outlet for the squirrel part of my brain. You know the squirrel part? The part where you really do want to sit down and pay the bills can't ignore the squirrel part. So it sits here and looks at ideas for drawings we could make if we had spent our Christmas holidays just doing whatever we wanted instead of fretting over the upcoming school business. Or whatever that was I was doing.
10. What is my problem. What do I want? I might have to sit down and write with my right hand. The left hand is always in charge, the other side of my brain might have something to say. Or else this unease is caffeine talking. Maybe maybe not. Maybe I'm tired.
11. I sorted all the bills.
12. When I got home from school/shopping for nonexistent cute sweaters I vacuumed the carpet in the living room and hallway and sucked up the bits of crap that come in on everybody's snowy shoes. 
13. I need to finish the bills and get stuff ready to send. 
14. I wonder if I sent the car insurance bill already because I don't see it in here.
15. I need to call the Ford place about the axle. First I have to look up the number.
16. I hope nobody is reading this boringness.
17. I need to call my boy and tell him where to meet me. I wonder if I could just Facebook him. Ok done.
18. I am fairly happy with the house.
19. My room needs an overhaul. There are certain parts I can't do anything about if I refuse to throw them in the garbage. Like, the box of magazines, superb magazines, for students to cut things out of for projects. I should put them in J's garage or something. 
20. Need to buy two more filing boxes to sit on top of the file cabinet. I think I mentioned this. 
21. Need to hang the cute art I made last semester.
22. Need to figure out new home for the three bags of crochet I dug out with the intent to make things for Christmas gifts, which ended up being three bags of crochet to make two dozen crochet flower magnets which were magnificent, and completely inspired by procrastination. 
23. I started a scarf for W.'s birthday hopefully she does not read my blog. I have two months, that should be enough time.
24. I can put clothes away on Wednesday. I did pretty good getting things done yesterday and today. Not perfect but that's okay, I did something.
25. Need to reboot the laundry.
26. I am making progress on the bills.
27. I need to get the crap out of the back of my van and wash it. Bags and bags of Goodwill stuff and some things that need to shred. Totally have to get that done before next week.
28. I want to draw some deer. Cute ones. Why I don't know. I have this idea in my head.
29. I should write down my ideas. They zoom around and take up too much room in my head. 
30. For example, I have those clippy barrettes thingys to put crochet flowers on. 
31. I have a zillion more magnets to put crochet flowers on. 
32. I want to make a crochet flower necklace. I spend time thinking about how much I like other peoples necklaces, but I totally wouldn't wear them, most of them are either too blingy or so expensive or I can not imagine wearing a necklace and a matching set of earrings. It's either, or, people. I don't mean that for you, just for me. If I have a spectacular necklace, the earrings have to be understated.
33. I went to Target and tried to find shirts and stuff and it was so disappointing. I was flipping thru one rack and one lady was there too and I said, hum, too weird, and she laughed. Then I said, Well they're either too weird or too itchy. And she said, "well, it seems like some years are like that, that's all they have."
34. Am I one of the only people that hates itchy clothes? I seriously couldn't wear half the stuff Target had this trip. Nevermind I was only looking at the clearance stuff. 
35. I got some hairspray too so I managed to do a cute little pouf at the top of my head so my round head does not look so round with my ponytail. 
36. Ok now I'm going to pay the bills. 
37. Tomorrow I will mail them.
38. Ok now I'm going to reboot the laundry. 
39. and I cleaned the toilet, the floor around the toilet, the bathroom mirror, the sink, brushed my teeth, waxed my eyebrows and now I'm going to bed.