I am stuck. I have no enthusiasm for anything.
This isn't entirely true, I am fine as long as the kids are here. I am making it just fine, I can get up, I can get them to school, or if it's the weekend, cook them breakfast (mostly). I can do that. But then this morning, just like the other day, I brought them to school and started yawning, and really I just want to be in bed. Since when does a mom, suddenly, when the youngest kid is 10, start getting sad? I thought that was just for moms who realized they couldn't stay home with their babies? So I've been going through this for years. My oldest is 17. I really do need to work. And I really am sleepy.
I keep telling myself, if I would get out there today and get several jobs done, I could have more time tomorrow and Wednesday morning to spend with J. Today he's at work, what else am I going to do? He works 24 hours, then he's off for 48. This is horrible for me. After the whole cancer thing, I decided really I should spend as much time as I can with him, same as the way I feel about the kids. May as well hang out with them while I have them.
Anyway I am dreading going out and getting jobs done. I have to go to five gas stations and stock their greeting cards this week. I am wondering if I can get them all done in one day. Then also, I have to go to about a zillion Dollar stores and put clearance stickers on some books. I'm sorry but I feel icky in those stores, the floors are just always so gross.
Maybe I will feel better after a nap.
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I dunno, I'm feeling sad these days too. I think it might be the weather--but then I think about both kids being in college in the fall, them not needing me as much anymore, my job is getting me down, and then there is the dame on FB trash-talking me.....sigh.
I think some days are blue days and other days...well...they are sunshiney days. The key is to not let the blue days outnumber the sunshiney ones. I'm working on that.
Now, if I can just get the world around me to green up and the sunshine to come out. I'm sure that would help with the icky mood.
Hope you find the sunshine too, my friend.
I hope you got them all done in one day and got to relax afterwords. :) I've been battling the blues as well. It's going around..wishing you well.
I hope you got them all done in one day and got to relax afterwords. :) I've been battling the blues as well. It's going around..wishing you well.
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I hope you got them all done in one day and got to relax afterwords. :) I've been battling the blues as well. It's going around..wishing you well.
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